THE DREAM !!!

  It was last week thta i got this dream .., pathetically I think that that dream is going to be my future .., but it is kinda true .., i dreamed that i got 8A and 1 B+ for my SPM .., kinda very lovely and sweet and aspiring dream rite ?? but in some how i think that dream is just a sign for me that i might flung my spm .., bcoz my granma always tell me that bad dream can sometimes give you good ending and vice versa .., damn it i need to start study .., so that i can pursue what ever i want in the future ,,m well in d other hand .., i kinda pity my brother of being my mom's puppet .., well maybe thats the result of failing in SPM .., bob .., wake up .., take the dream as a motivation and start to pull ur self together and damn it start ur effort to be a doctor  !!

stepping down ..,

maybe its time for me to step down from becoming the captain .., i know its hard .., but a need and urgency is there .., i mean next year im not going to lead them anymore .., soo just let hamman lead them before he will be in a bad condition next year .., da ....~ .., another 2 more month before i retire as am debater .., and i hope that its going to be a good and short journey or ill attend a suicide .., hahahah .., btw .., i think i dont like !@#$#$%^ anymore and i want to stop all of  nonsense that i made .., insaflah .., hahahah .., SPM is awaiting ..,

fuck ya EXAM !!!

i was like - damn it !! fuck ya exam .., i got 3A , 1A- , 1B+ , 2C+ , 1D , 1 FAIL !!!!!! in three weeks time theres gonna b another one .., mid year .., its a standardize exam !! for whole sbp !! which means they'll be sbp ranking !! last year i got 3809th place over 9000 over student .., hope can be better .., amin

p/s : swearing and amin in the same post .., bapak kapir .., bhahahaha        
                                                         

Dilemma

i kinda like her .., but still idk wether she like me or not ,. i mean she is beautiful and funny , cute .., compare 2 me i dun think that im  a worth for her .., its already a bless for me that i can be close to her .., i dun want that kind of gift swift away just bcoz of the 3 words that im going to say to her .., nvr mind ., god .., show me ur mercy and show me a right path .., amin ....,

what if happy , guilt and sad combine = me

last wednesday i need to make a decision on wether should i go back to kg or stay and go to kdu.., suddenly my mom said .., alah ikram pegi jew lah kdu , t balek ipoh nek train .., then i dunno y .., my head  start to tell me  , go back to kg ipoh , alah . u have another tournament .., bg lah chikass and razzaq and hamman to be in a team ,.., next year they need to be in a team anyway , let them built the chem ,. jgn jadi cam ko n hamman n razaq .., well its kinda true ,, i did what i should .., they won the kdu national championship .., a big achievement .., then come a stupid feeling .., should i be in razzaq's team .., sbb im not gud like any of them .., maybe aq masuk pun bcoz teacher umi juz wan to give me muka ., and should i train them ?? chikass is much better than me so y should i train them (f1)?? hmh .., im totally a looser !! well i think i should leave debate .., i dun want to make them loose again .., bcoz i want them to be happy .., they said and admit that its much better when im not in the debate room .., maybe that is what make them soo strong this time .., the absent of a stupid captain !! HAPPY coz they can get such an achievement !! GUILTY of becoming the reason that they cant achieve anything in  debate bcoz of me !! SAD because i need to leave the thing that i love in this school !! ceh .., go razzaq ., hamman and chikass !! gambateh !!

this portrayed my feeling !!

HISTORY , BIOLOGY AND PHYSICS !! U MADE ME A DAY !!

i was like damn afraid that i couldnt answer the m*****F****** papers !! hoo !! or ill be doom inside my own life !! argh !! thankz every body who help !! this is the kiss you guys !!

P/S : I HATE CHEATERS !!!

MAY U BE BLESSED BY GOD !!

AMIN !!

CHEMIST !! ADDMATH !! RUIN !! DAMN !! FUCK !!!

I THINK I FLUNCT MY ADDMATH !! its a must for everybody who's like me to be in this situation , haih .., what a life .., failing in add math .., in a kind of way i really blame the person who created math in such a hard way , why cant he just make a simple math like abc , its useless anyway .., i mean the linear law !! wat the fuck !!

this thing is kinda true , its fun when ur doing experiment but its fucking damn bored when its on book