what if happy , guilt and sad combine = me

last wednesday i need to make a decision on wether should i go back to kg or stay and go to kdu.., suddenly my mom said .., alah ikram pegi jew lah kdu , t balek ipoh nek train .., then i dunno y .., my head  start to tell me  , go back to kg ipoh , alah . u have another tournament .., bg lah chikass and razzaq and hamman to be in a team ,.., next year they need to be in a team anyway , let them built the chem ,. jgn jadi cam ko n hamman n razaq .., well its kinda true ,, i did what i should .., they won the kdu national championship .., a big achievement .., then come a stupid feeling .., should i be in razzaq's team .., sbb im not gud like any of them .., maybe aq masuk pun bcoz teacher umi juz wan to give me muka ., and should i train them ?? chikass is much better than me so y should i train them (f1)?? hmh .., im totally a looser !! well i think i should leave debate .., i dun want to make them loose again .., bcoz i want them to be happy .., they said and admit that its much better when im not in the debate room .., maybe that is what make them soo strong this time .., the absent of a stupid captain !! HAPPY coz they can get such an achievement !! GUILTY of becoming the reason that they cant achieve anything in  debate bcoz of me !! SAD because i need to leave the thing that i love in this school !! ceh .., go razzaq ., hamman and chikass !! gambateh !!

this portrayed my feeling !!

HISTORY , BIOLOGY AND PHYSICS !! U MADE ME A DAY !!

i was like damn afraid that i couldnt answer the m*****F****** papers !! hoo !! or ill be doom inside my own life !! argh !! thankz every body who help !! this is the kiss you guys !!

P/S : I HATE CHEATERS !!!

MAY U BE BLESSED BY GOD !!

AMIN !!

CHEMIST !! ADDMATH !! RUIN !! DAMN !! FUCK !!!

I THINK I FLUNCT MY ADDMATH !! its a must for everybody who's like me to be in this situation , haih .., what a life .., failing in add math .., in a kind of way i really blame the person who created math in such a hard way , why cant he just make a simple math like abc , its useless anyway .., i mean the linear law !! wat the fuck !!

this thing is kinda true , its fun when ur doing experiment but its fucking damn bored when its on book

damn !! worst week ever !!

i faught with razzaq and hamman again and i bet its a permanent one , hmh , cant imagine me and them in a team , hahahh , lantak lah , then last night i was so stressed up because of the fight then i went to my moody mode , damn it , x pasal2 apai jadi mangsa , seriously i think i kinda cross the line last night , i can sense that apai is damn angry last night and i kinda apologized so , its kinda equal , apai , a weird fren , a good one ,

then juz right after the that , exam !! huh !! Islamic studies and math !! fuck up !! argh ! waiting for tomorrow
challenge !! ADDMATH !!

after that is chemist , i think i can score A+ for it , but when teacher  JAJA  told me that the chapter that will be tested is SALT !! i was like ? WTF !! CHEMIST !!! you BROKE MY HEART !!

1 week update !! only important thing !!

its quite a long time for me leaving my blog alone ! update time !! hmh .., loads of thing happen this week .., got a fight wif my fren for 4 days juz afor the sake of a bowl of stupid maggy .., ahhahah .., then got stressed up with the debaters .., all bajet best typpe .., soo no need for me to explain it .., then stdy week .., i've studied like hell 4 this couple of days so that i could get top 60 in my batch to get into the top score program .., hope i get it .., wish me luck .., SPM !!! Gambateh !!